Then people to be, I had spider legs in high school because my legs were so long and so much. We had birthgiving hips because my hips are so big. Who are these people rude as hell. Here they are. I don’t like that. I don’t like my smile. It’s my never smile on people.

You want totally one of my favorite things about you? Sure extra teeth. No, I promise. Hmm. Yeah, we’re gonna get that fix. Oh my height. They only paintball everything you’re saying are like my favorite quality is about you body or smile your height, your eyes. My understanding is, oh my gosh.

Is insecure. Here you go on a tangent by microwing. You really gonna be nice to me. So so strange, I wish that we could see each other like in the lens that we see each other in. Yes, that makes it doesn’t make sense, Okay? You know what I mean though?

Like I feel like we’re always so hard on ourselves but other people like I was in the diary room that happened. I’m a failure. Just. Yeah, that’s so tough. Like golfing, what do you like golfing? Stay transition here like actual golfing or mineral thing. Actual golf thing. I’ve only ever been in the golf cart.

You didn’t ever need to hit the balls? No, I was just there enough fun. Drink white was in the cart with my friend’s mom, Just YouTube.

Little hello to talk about people. Thank you. Got herpes, aids. And These people, right? His career skyrocketed to new levels of fame. On the late 80s. You take it. His act all the way to massive Arenas across America. Oh, mother Hobbit went to the coming to get a road dog.

A bone.

In 1990, he became one of the first comedians to sell out. Madison Square Garden. I remember watching dice perform back. Then I went, oh, comedy is now your rock star. You can become a rockstar, have a championship belt for comedians, But if they did, I would be the understood in comedy.

King Over two sold out of 19 performed for close to 40,000 die-hard fans In the world of comedy 1990. Andrew does Clay was a big blip on the cultural rad.

Is in the name of music. We were in New York mixing Axel felt like something was missing from the song and then Stephen Adler’s girlfriend Adriana at the time was was in the studio but Stephen had made it there yet Years later Adriana spoke about the extraordinary events that followed he was like Adrian I know and it’s axle voice.

You know, there’s something I’d like you to do, It’s very serious. He wanted to have life. Sex sounds on a song. He was mixing, we were young and wild and free and there was the notion that it was for an artistic purpose. Of course, I would do that. You know, we might the two of them up and they went at it and we recorded it.

I had no idea that I was going to be rock and roll history that it was going to be a legendary app. I didn’t realize that she was a serious girlfriend as Stevens. So, I mean only dawned on me later, you know, oh, that wasn’t good. And it might be part of the reason that that Steven and Axel are still someone a strange As the months of recording, go on axles behavior.

Grows even more extreme and he starts to become physically destructive. He smashed up dressing those. He’s always bleeding and Harding his toes by kicking through walls. And so on of to destroy things have become part of his resident, it’s no coincidence. So that first album was called after time for destruction.

Welcome to the jungle. Anything goes? You’re crazy. Even axle is aware. That is volatile personality, could jeopardize the future of the band I’m psychotic. And that’s a real problem to try to. Like, you know, it’s like I have to like, balance up, you know, when can I destroy everything around me to, when I have to be nice to everybody.

It was very clear to me that there was something going on Axel’s turbulent mind is threatening to destroy, not just the band but also himself At the age of around 24. Axel OD on pills. He revealed this dark moment to Kurt Loader. The reason I ever do this because of stress, I couldn’t take it.

Yeah, and I just grabbed this bottle pills and in an argument and just goes down and ended up in the hospital, eventually, actual agrees to see a psychiatrist to try and get a diagnosis for his mood swings. He’s diagnosed with manic depressive disorder. Now known as bipolar disorder, bipolar is a very debilitating condition with extreme highs and extreme lows that are very difficult for the person who is experiencing the symptoms.

His mood swings, his appetite, for destruction, all make sense to a bipolar diagnosis. It also makes sense to his pain. His desire for control when things even in his own mind. Seem out of control. He took lithium for a while, which was a common, you know, medication for manic depressives